F*CK, I WASN'T READY, BUT I AM NOW! WITH TRACY HALL

Tracy Hall · 17:51

This is a hard one for me, because I fully believed that I had an incredible intuition. I felt like I could read people I felt like I knew I had this sixth sense, like I felt like intuitively I knew things that other people didn't know. I felt things that other people didn't feel. I fully believed that to be true about myself, until this happened. That's hard, though, so hard because there was not one moment where my intuition told me that this was off, wrong, weird. There was not one moment and, you know, he was a master manipulator, and that's, of course, why this happened. He created this movie, this world for me, that that all made sense now, was he quirky? Yes, he was. Were there some weird things about him? Yes, there were. But everyone, we're 40, like, everyone's a bit weird and quirky, and no one's perfect. Um, in retrospect, I can see them all, but in the moment, there was not one part of my heart, my gut, my body, that told me that this was not what it was. So that was a very difficult thing to come to terms with, and something that I've had to rebuild is that trust in my own intuition. And, you know, it's it. I've done a lot of reading and research, and it actually makes sense, because it's not, you know, your intuition can kick in when you're in a like, an empty parking, you know, car park at night and you're feeling a bit creepy or whatever, like, there are things like that that your body just feels and senses that, in the case of, you know, relationships and master manipulators, and when you're in love, Your brain is actually very, very faulty, and this reliance, or over reliance, on our intuition, is actually it's a bit of a risk, because your brain can override those things through all of the biases that we have, optimism bias, confirmation bias, similarity bias. Yes, and all of these things were happening in my world with Hamish, where my psychology was manipulated to a point where I fully believed, yeah, that it was exactly what it what it looked like. So there's been a lot of kind of academic learning around that, but then also rebuilding my own trust in in how I feel over time, but that's taken quite a bit of effort, I bet,